The Fill-In

     I had an extremely rough day today.
     Here I am, trying to go to college in only 14 days, when I receive some devastating news concerning some monetary help I was going to get from Disability.  In short, the news was that it's not happening.  It was a large amount of money.  I really needed it.  And I honestly feel that I deserve it.  Guys, I've never wanted anything in my whole life as much as I want to go to Harding University.  It's been a struggle from day number one and I truly believed that I had finally settled everything.  All was good and in place and ready for me to go to my dream school.  And now it's as if I'm starting all over.  Ugh!
     The problem is not that I want to give up.  The issue is that I have no idea what to do next.  I don't have a plan B because my plan A came together!  Where can I come up with a large sum of money in only two weeks? Who can I turn to?  What will I do if the money doesn't appear?  I know God will provide, but I don't believe in sitting on my butt to wait for it.  I have to keep fighting.  But I just do not know how.
     Feeling totally defeated, I headed into work.  I was late, due to the Disability meeting and I didn't want to go in at all.  My heart wasn't in it today.  But when I walked upstairs, I saw my fill-in relaxing with my kids everyone enjoying themselves and I smiled.  It was so sweet. ((Let's take a pause in the story to note that the fill-in saved the day at the last second when I realized I couldn't make it into work at 10pm last night.  He rocks.))
     Quickly discovering that I was having a rough day, the fill-in and hero of today set his sights on making it better.  By staying a whole extra hour to talk, insisting that I was not allowed to cry, and by continuing to text me long after we had both left work for the day.  Encouraging me and distracting me and entertaining me.  And would you like to know something?  He succeeded.  He helped me get through today and I don't think he even knows how grateful I am to have his help- NOT just at work.  What a good guy :)
     Problems will resolve themselves and sadness fades.  I'm so so glad I didn't let a whole day waste without a little happiness in it. All thanks to The Fill-In.