Quite Frequently

     My history professor said once that "some people mess up more frequently."  He went as far as implying that it's in their genetics.  Well, after some careful consideration, I believe he's correct.  And through some crazy luck of the draw or joke from God, I ended up with that gene.  Goodness.
     You know those times where you say something you shouldn't?  Or when you don't say something you should?  These happen to me so often!  Why can't I spit it out or just shut up and why must it be so hard to tell the difference in the moment???  Ugh.  I feel so confused and tired and frustrated right now.  It's exhausting.  To replay that moment over and over in your head, imagining how it went and how you wish it would have gone.  And you can't quit.  It's like a dvd with a deep scratch.  I'm stuck on the same scene.

What's it Worth?

Worth:
 noun
-usefulness or importance, as to the world, a person, or for a purpose
-excellence of character or quality as commanding esteem
-value, as in money
-a quantity of something with a specified value
-wealth, riches, property or possessions, net worth

Hey ya'll. Sooo basically I just can not stop thinking about how often the word Worth is used.
          Is it worth the wait?

          Will it be worth my time?

          How many points is it worth?

And so on.  I'm going nuts here because I can't answer the question.  I don't know what is worth what to whom and who gets to decide that.  It's crazy!

     There are many things that, to me, would be Worth the Wait, that to someone else who's got different interests than I or who just simply does not have the gift of patience would consider a massive waste of time.  Correct?  Well, is one of us mistaken?  Can we both be right?  Is worth not a concept that either Is or Is not?  Because, you see, money has a set worth.  It's worth what it's worth and it costs what it costs but how much a person is worth to you or a special possession or time has Worth to each of us, but varies in amount.
     Goodness.  The more I think about this, the more I don't know.
     It all started when my boyfriend asked me today if some insignificant thing was Worth it.  I instantly had the thought "To me or to you?"  Since then I've been hearing the word used over and over and over again.  I can't get over this puzzle.  Why would I get to choose?
     I'm pretty sure the method I use for measuring my own Worth and the Worth of the things that belong to me or surround me is different from the manner used by anyone else on the planet.  Most likely, we all have our own system.  Is this the solution?  I don't know.  It must be!  But this dilemma has made me seriously reconsider that word and how casually I use it. 
   
     Just a side note, I've always hated words with too many definitions.  I personally think we should all broaden our vocabulary and then choose words that are so much more specific.