I'm One of Those People Who Gets Addicted Easily

     I just finished watching the very first episode of Lost on Netflix and I am already hooked.  I can't wait to watch and see and figure out what that big scary thing is and what's going to happen next.  And watching that made me decide to get on here and try to list some things I've been into lately.  Maybe other people like the same things as me and maybe I'm the only one in the world who enjoys what I enjoy and I have really bad taste in everything.  I don't care.  I'm going to post my opinions anyway.  It's my blog.  I can do that if I want to.
     I recently finished watching Wildfire.  You know, the show with the horse?  I watched the whole series.  Every episode.  There's only like 52 so it didn't take very long.  I watch way too much Netflix.  So, I really liked the show.  It's basically all about one girl, one guy, and one horse.  It's simple and it doesn't hurt your head to try and remember what happened in the last episode.
     I also just got caught up with The Secret Life of the American Teenager.  Geez did I cry in that last one!  I won't spoil it for you.  You have to watch for yourself.  I like that show because of the story.  Whoever wrote that did a great job but the acting is worse than average.  By a lot.
     Probably my favorite show ever (NOT INCLUDING Reality Television) is One Tree Hill.  I'm a couple of episodes behind but I'll get there.  It's hard to recommend that show tho because it's a show that you really have to see every single episode of before you can understand.  And there's been like 8 seasons so it's basically too late to start now.  Sorry.
     The show I never ever miss is The Bachelorette.  Or The Bachelor.  Or Bachelor Pad.  They're all basically the same and tho they're totally trashy and worthless and every episode lasts 2 whole hours, I am totally hooked.  I just love it.  I always fall in love right along with the people on the show.  Which is so goofy.    I know.  But it's not like I'm the only one.  That show has endless ridiculous fans just like me.
     I also seriously enjoy Paranormal State and Beyond Scared Straight on A&E.  Those are also embarrassing.
   
     How about books?
     I read the first 7 books in the Pretty Little Liars series and although they're not the kind of books that have any kind of substance or provoke thought in any way... I liked them.  All of them.  I always finish wanting to know what happens next.  In fact, the 8th book is on its way to my house right now.
     I finished Shana Twain's autobiography titled From This Moment On and it was so completely incredible.  She really did a great job and her life has been so....full and confusing and difficult, she had so much to share and I loved being a part of it.  That book is LONG tho so you really have to commit.
     The next book I read was The Pact: A Love Story by Jodi Picoult. OH MY GOSH it was fantastic!  By far the best book I've read in a long time.  It was sweet and funny and happy and sad and surprising.  I definitely recommend it, especially if you're a girl.  My Sister's Keeper is another good one by Jodi.  The book is way better than the movie.

     I think that's all I have for now but don't think for one minute that's the last you'll hear from me!!

Why Can't We Be Friends??

     So.
     Have you ever been able to maintain a healthy friendship with someone you were previously dating?  Can you go back to being "just friends" with an ex?  There's no debating the fact that I have never personally accomplished this, even though I've tried more than just one time.  But what I want to know is not whether I can do it, but if anyone can.  Is it even possible for exes to be friends?
     I doubt it.  Most things in life that I know anything about involve lines.  You go so far and draw a line.  Maybe the goal is to cross the line, break your record, take another step.  But there are other lines that we cross that we'd prefer to re-cross and get back to the other side.  But the lines in life- or all the ones I've ever been a part of- can not be uncrossed. And unfortunately this seems to be the case with the Friendship Line.  Don't you agree?
     Once you cross over from being buddies only to something more, I don't think there's a way to have any other kind of relationship.  You're stuck with a romantic relationship, or no relationship at all.  And so far, the only other possibility I see is just a whole lot of awkwardness and I can't stand that.  Awkward is the worst!
     I once dated my best friend.  And now that we aren't together, I can't tell him all that stuff that you only tell your best friend.  I have a new best friend.  And my relationship with her is fantastic.  She may even be a BETTER best friend...  But she isn't the same.  She can't replace the one I lost and I lost it for good because of stupid lines. I wish you could choose which writing utensil you want to use to draw your lines.  Like:: "This one I'm drawing in thick black sharpie marker, but this one over here let's put in pencil."  You know what I mean?
     But if everyone was able to undo every mistake they ever made then none of us would ever learn anything.  And we'd all probably end up spending the rest of our lives in relationships with the wrong people.  Those people we were meant to breakup with.
     Who wrote the rules for relationships?  I'd really like to know so that I could smack them hard across the face.

This bar here isn't big enough for the title I want to put here

     So I haven't really posted in a while.  This is not because I haven't had anything to say. No no no, now that's a ridiculous thought.  I haven't posted because I've had too much to say.  All these thoughts that are racing around in my head without any sort of common thing.  What is my problem?  Why can't I relax?  Geez.
     I'm not happy.  At all.  And I have this childish feeling that nobody is listening to me.  And WOW can that make a girl angry.  But what am I supposed to do?  Yell and rebel?  That's mature.  I don't even know if I want to be mature.  I'm in the mood to throw a big fit.  And I would if I thought that would do any good.
     I'm awfully blessed.
     I'm awfully blessed.
     I'm awfully blessed.
     I keep telling myself that, but I'm still pissed off.  I think what I want is for things to be easy.  Even SOME things being easy would be good enough.  But nothing is easy, everything is stressful, and I think I've hit my limit. It's something like 28 days until I move out of my house to go to college.  I'm so excited, especially since I have the most wonderful roommate in the whole entire world.  But I want someone around here to act like they're going to miss me.  Good grief, people, can't you at least pretend?
     And why are boys stupid?  You know the only real thing I want from a guy?  For him to say what he means and mean what he says.  Anything else, I could work around but I need this part and I don't think there's one single fricking guy out there who can do it. Grrrrrr.
     I don't even know what else to say.  Not that that's all of what I WANT to say.  No no no, there's definitely more however, I don't know how to convey it all to a blog. I'm a mess.