Too much goin' on in my head and in my heart. I'm lovin' my boy and missin' him so much. Plus school takes up so much of my time and energy and I'm stretched and tired constantly. Then there's the fact that P and me are still adjusting to living together- NOT in a bad way. And when I actually gain the rare and absurd 2 minutes of peaceful time all to myself alone in my room I hardly know what to do with it. Silence makes my ears ring. What do I have to do to get a break? I sound like a certain whiny girl that P and I commonly make fun of right now, and I know it. I understand that I have a GREAT, happy, safe, blessed life but oh my goodness I seriously need a vacation. A big long nap with no alarm set to push me to whatever task I have to do next.
I'm not blaming school or P or Jake. No, I feel like my exhaustion is mostly my own fault. I've taken on too much but today I really truly finally reached my limit. I officially feel like I'm drowning. I'm a little bit worried about what's going to happen next and how I'm going to deal with all this Stuff that's piled on me so quickly. I know I can handle this.
I have to say, I am really looking forward to counseling on Thursday. I need to vent like never before.
Lord help me.
